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Thursday, January 16, 2014

Hollow Hope (?)

As I make my escape my past is tailgating me
When I look in the mirror it's my mistakes I see.
A reflection of me: could it really be?
Could all the stuff that I've done define me?
No! I pray it ain't true
Cuz when I think of all the stuff that I used to do
It scares me.
Those bloodstained hands were really me.
That filthy mind was really me.
That cloudy conscience was really me.
All those evil deeds were really me!
Collapsing under the weight of all the things that I've done
I think the battle's lost cuz I'm the only one
Who's swam in a pool of blood from those I've hurt,
From those I've injured, those I've killed.
Yeah, when I did my thing there was blood that was spilled.
Crushed hearts and emotions, ruined lives
I was feeding of those like it helped me survive!
Flowing through my veins were feelings of lust.
It dirtied my mind like thick clouds of dust.
For a while I was happy, yeah, I was fine. Then came time for me and death to dine. Dancing with the devil, it opened my eyes. To the truth that the devil was feeding me lies. Then I learned I was feeding my cancerous sin. Temptation's a revelation of the feelings within. When I learned about this lie I fell in a bottomless hole. Cuz I examined my stone heart and was greeted with something cold.
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But on the fumes I'm choking, the devils hands on my eyes,
I'm walking into traps and I don't even realize, 
I gotta break this habit, I gotta see the blackness,
and fight for my life, no more letting it slip past me, 
so I'll pray a prayer, give me strength God, 
cause I can't fight this alone, but I'm not ready to die.
v2 The truth will set me free? Then why am I still in chains? I thought it promised me comfort, but all I feel is pain. Surrounded by dark clouds all I see is rain. All I'm pleading is for someone to make these wild feelings tame. I'm feeling lame, body numb. Can't quite express it, I'm feeling dumb. But you get the picture, the image is clear. Everything I once loved has brought me fear. I'm driven to tears by the me of the past. As I cry I ask myself, how long will this last? Like the click of a button, will my history erase? Will I go incognito and never have to face The old version of me that has been disgraced? Cuz I've defiled my God, I brought insult to injury. Cuz Christ died that day when I hung him on that tree. When I spit at his face and told him I'd rather die Than make him my king, and that he shouldn't even try. Cuz it would never happen, I'm a slave to myself. I was a blind fool cuz he was offering me help. Yeah, offering me help, so he died for me. He died for ME when I put him on that tree. And the guilt I have, all the shame I once felt, Jesus felt the same way when God's wrath was dealt. The hand I've been dealt is completely unfair. If I wanted my rights I would have been there.
Hook
This feeling's so routine, it's like I'm stuck on replay. All the mistakes that I've done become clearer everyday. I'm stranded on an island, and I think I'm here to stay. It's like I'm going deaf cu I can't hear a word You say. With 66 love letters You speak volumes to me. And like a stereo on blast You're as clear as can be! So why does my mind, and my body and soul Block out all Your words and leave a big gaping hole? Is this it for me? Is this all I'll ever be? Will I never see the light? Should I just give up the fight?
I know You're my hero who will fight my dark night. But I don't feel that way, and I'm starting to lose sight. Of who I am, or where I am. I'm stuck in this abyss, and I don't know the way out. I cry and I scream but no one hears me shout. I know You can show me the route to escape this ghost story. Turn these ashes to riches, let this wretch bring You glory! I don't know if I'm too late, but I'm begging You know: Make this broken man new somehow.
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Thursday, August 8, 2013

For Today- Talmidim (The Servants)

I've been busy, which is why I haven't been posting in a while. Anyway, here are the lyrics to a song that my friend showed me. He said it was the reason he got "Ezekiel 36:26-28" tattooed on his arm. I listened to it. It is very encouraging.  For those that know For Today, you will know that they are a metal band. However, this song is a mix of singing and spoken word, and is not even remotely aggressive.

Lord of glory, make us worthy to possess your name. Lord of glory, make us worthy to possess your name.
And give us a new name. And call us your people, God. And give us a new name.

[Ezekiel 36:26-28] – “I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you;
I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh.
And I will put my Spirit in you and move you to follow my decrees and be careful to keep my laws.
You will live in the land I gave to your forefathers; you will be my people and I will be your God.”

Lord of glory, make us worthy to possess your name.
Lord of glory, make us worthy to possess your name.
And give us a new name. And call us your people, God. And give us a new name.

[Message:]
And through all of this, there is nothing, absolutely nothing, no fear, no
insecurity, no doubt, no hesitation that will ever, ever stop us. Because we
are the sons of the living God, because we are the children of the Almighty,
because we are the residents of the kingdom of heaven, and we are soldiers in
an army of the immortal. And when we speak life, life happens, and when we
speak healing, healing happens, and when we speak truth, truth happens. And
when we go take what we found to a dead world, we'll see it come to life again,
and when we take what we found to a hopeless world, we'll see hope come back.
We'll see the heart of our world start beating again, and we'll see the color
come back into people's faces. Absolutely nothing will ever stop that.
Mountains will move before us, and oceans will part before us, and the dead
will raise before us. And the world will know that our God is the God that
heals, and our God is a God that lives, and our God is a God that loves, and
like anything that anyone has ever felt before, because we are fearless, and
because we are His hands, and because we are His feet. Forever, and ever.

Lord of glory, make us worthy to possess your name. [x6]

Restoration is here.

Saturday, June 22, 2013

Polluted Mind, Dirty Heart

I once was lost, why's it hard to forgive?
I once was dead, so why can't I let others live?
Instead I kill em through bitterness or maybe with hate.
In my heart they are dead, but are they really too late?
Even if they don't see it, inside I judge
Them by their past, & I hold a grudge.
And sometimes by their present, but I don't do nothing.
So I ask myself, am I really loving?
What good is it if I only think less of them,
But I don't help myself or any of em?
Is that the love of God beating in my heart?
I gotta get it flowing in arteries, then I can start
To walk like Christ, & think like Him, too.
That can be very difficult to do.
You know what I'm talking bout don't you act like you don't.
When you're pointing at that one person who's smoking a joint.
None of us are blameless so don't elevate yourself.
Instead of hating on others why not try to give em help?
Help. That's what I need.
Cuz lately I haven't been sowing seed.
'Cept, for that seed of hate growing in me.
After God's own heart is something hard to be.

Chorus
I shouldn't hate or I'm walking in the dark.
Instead I should let love be m spark.
I said, I shouldn't hate or I'm walking in the dark.
But it's really hard to ignite that spark.

I think I think I'm better than you.
I know I know that that ain't true.
Big lie is, I'm a perfect child.
Truth is, we're all raised in the wild.
And raised to be wild, our planet is wack.
That's a different story tho, let's not get off track.
Not that irrelevant, cuz point is, I'm a sinner like yourself.
We have both been affected, we got issues with our health.
So to point your speck when I got one, too?
That's wack, I have no right to hate on you.
Only God does, & yet He loves us all.
If that's the case then I should love you even when you fall.
We all make mistakes, I'm no exception.
It's just that sometimes I got a messed up perception
That I'm really more favored, and you are not.
But we all have an equal chance from sin to be bought!

Tuesday, June 11, 2013

Reality (Save Our Souls)

This has not yet been released to the public until now. It is not meant to come off as hateful. For ALL have sinned. That includes me. I'm not better than y'all. Rather, I am worried for you, and want you to find the remedy.

You’ve got a condition and you’re melting away.
No wizard can cure it, it’s here to stay.
You’re a slave to it, got you tied up in a rope.
And yet it’s your painkiller to help you cope.
Some of you rely on dope & it’s killing you.
Cuz you gotta be dope to fit in with the crew.
You fit in with peeps you hate just to prove a point.
You lose another day as you smoke that joint.
Then there are joints, a club chain.
Seeing those ladies just clubs away the pain.
But after you feast you’ll be hungry again.
My question to you is, what do you do then?
We don’t live on bread alone.
Cuz when it gets stale it’ll be like a stone.
You are what you eat so your heart becomes hard.
You take it out at the casino playing cards.
Life dealt them cards, you say it’s unfair.
So you make the best of life, living without a care.
Care not, for others, cuz you feel high in the sky.
Too high to see others so you just pass them by.
You feel so good as you drink through your pain.
But you’re really only pouring your life down the drain.
Life’s one big party, let’s start a rave.
Listen dawg, you need to be saved.

Chorus
Every time you get up runnin' you're lost in this world.
No time for the gospel, can't hear the word.
Feelin' so empty as you count your time.
The world's fading quickly,
But what will you do when you die?


V2- Life’s not fair? I agree, we got grace and mercy.
Loved unconditionally and we’re undeserving.
Yet they say you live once, so get rich quick.
Them greenbacks are quickly making me sick.
And that’s sick, if you worship something man made.
Is your worth the one thing you’re willing to degrade?
Depraved is your mind, and it is starving.
It has no knowledge but your head’s enlarging.
On top of the world, the people, your pawns like bait.
But when you face the king, there won’t be no checkmate.
Check this, you check every cheque you write.
Make sure the amount that was transferred is right.
Can’t lose a penny or you’ll lose your time.
Time’s running out, your soul ain't saved by dimes.
That stack of money will blow over real soon.
At the gates no one care if you were a tycoon.
Media lies to get an expected reaction.
Buy this, try that, to cover satisfaction.
But once you do you ain't satisfied.
Still your reaction is the same, tho the media lied.
You say you’re so boss, but the world is your boss.
Listen dawg, there’s freedom at the cross.
Chorus
V3- We live in an age where Christ’s name is used for swearing.
And all over our bodies it’s profanity we’re wearing.
We’re worn, and we’re torn, apart by each other.
Armies rage war, brothers fight brothers.
We ain't bros tho, I’m a child of God.
But don’t get enraged, I’m not saying I ain't flawed.
So I watch the world, there’s trafficking for sex.
Some of y’all blind, don’t know what really happens next.
But your eyes are open when u watch them in porn.
It’s like A.D.I.D.A.S, I’m talking Korn.
Cheat on your wife? This ain't a test!
You go to uncharted areas like you’re on some sort of quest.
Well search this: is this really your life?
A pretty masquerade that only causes you strife?
One day you’ll be unmasked, & the whole world will see.
Just who you really turn out to be.
Don’t wait for that day.

Chorus

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